Ten days ago on December 5th I published a post detailing my experiences at home over the past few months. It was incredibly one-sided and unfair. I simplified certain incidents and ignored the nuance of the situation. Everyone here hurt everyone, but you wouldn’t know that from the way I wrote. Last night the person the post was about found it.

I fucked up. I should never have posted that. The feelings I was having should not have been publicly broadcast. I am fully responsible for that post and the pain it caused. She found it right after I had told her how much she meant to me and she had apologized for something she did that hurt me. That post completely undid anything positive that we had achieved last night. I know that my intent was never to hurt, and I know that frankly that does not matter after I have caused hurt.

I was really shitty to someone I care so deeply about. I cannot take that back. And if she decides to go no contact because of it, I fully support her decision.

I am sorry, I am so sorry. I am not seeking forgiveness.