So let’s just say that my feelings and the entire scenario surrounding my (now removed) last post and the posts I took down earlier are incredibly complicated and that I feel like I was emotionally manipulated. I have a much longer, more thought out write up about my experience and my feelings and I don’t know if I’ll put it up. I am allowed to put my experiences and feelings into my own space but now I’m really worried that I’m being watched and my ex will arc up again. I don’t like the feeling of being silenced. It’s very controlling. But I’d also just really like to move on from this woman being such a large and painful part of my life. I’d like to talk about my experience at some point, but I need to feel safe from her first.