I’m sitting here wondering why my therapist is recommending me yuri manga and books about sapphic yearning when she knows that I’m yearning far too sapphically right now. And then I get to this passage:

Red knows her own weaknesses as well as anyone. She presses too hard, breaks what she would embrace, tears what she would touch to her teeth.

Oh. Okay I understand now why this was recommended me. I am much like Red. I press too hard and break what I would embrace.

How badly have I broken you? And you?

Earlier:

“So: Let me be clear.
I like writing you. I like reading you. When I finish your letters, I spend frantic hours in secret composing my replies, pondering ways to send them.”

It’s weird how I found myself in the same scenario with you, and you two and a half years later: long, longing emails between like hearts, instantly working on replies and then sitting on them because we’re supposed to be taking things slowly. This whole book is, so far, about exactly that. It’s so damn romantic.

Yes, I am finally reading This is How You Lose the Time War.

Interestingly this will not actually be my book of the month for June 2026. Also, spoilers, but I’m doing a book of the month for June instead of game of the month. I haven’t really played games much this month. I put about 10 hours into Breath of Fire but I’m bouncing off it pretty hard. Maybe the sequel will fare me better?

Anyway, it’s very eye opening to be read for filth like this in a book recommendation from my therapist.