so I started How Do We Relationship? two days ago and I’m already part way through Volume 6. This is a problem lmao. I’m finding myself getting allll up in my own feelings because of it. I’m super invested in these women and I need things to go well between them. I need their struggles to be worth it. I need my struggles to be worth it…

A couple weeks ago I actually got new glasses. Goodbye to my iconic rainbow glasses :(( I seriously got compliments on them EVERY time I went out. Now I have even bigger glasses, but the frames are perfectly clear plastic and the arms are a gold-colored wire :\\\ SUPER BORING! Though I do love the oversized look, and I love how much more of my field of vision is corrected because of it. My astigmatism in my left eye had become worse since the last time I got an eye exam, and that’s been corrected now! I can read my TV in my bedroom at night again!

I haven’t touched a video game in days. I’m only touching my computer to synchronize books and manga to my kindle, and to apply hacks to my kindle.

Over the weekend Chrys and I went on a walk and on a whim went to the local thrift store. She saw a $16 Kindle 3g and urged me to buy it. The battery was completely toast, but she bought me a $20 battery replace. Still MUCH cheaper than a modern kindle and FAR cheaper than the original cost of the device. I’m in the love with the thing!! I’ve been using it non-stop! This is my first e-ink device and it’s so cool! It barely even counts as a screen!

The first thing I did when I got it was backup the old user’s books, factory wipe it, and install the jailbreak and a few hacks. Primarily the custom screensaver/lock screen hack! Now I have gay shit and shitpost shit on the lock screen instead of boring amazon author shit. I like the personal touch a lot.

But otherwise, that last post was written entirely on my phone while on the toilet. This post is at least being typed on my computer! ….but also on the toilet…

The point is, I’m pretty teched-out. The kindle doesn’t feel like a screen at all though. It has no backlight, and the firmware is too old to even browse the web properly¹. Feels like reading a book. In fact having it finally urged me to read one of the screenplays my friend Anne asked me to read years ago. It was super good, I cried a lot!! But I’m a SUCKER for love stories! Especially when things get rough but there’s reconciliation.

Things at home have been really good. I don’t know if I’ve mentioned that. For a bit I was really worried that things would go sideways again, but so far we’ve been doing really good at handling things and just connecting again. I don’t know what comes next. I’m just trying to take it one day at a time and not get ahead of myself.

Maybe that’s why I’m so sucked into this manga, it’s really giving me what I’m lacking in real life… Sometimes my emotions run high about the situation, but most of the time I feel like I’m handling it pretty maturely.

my chronic fatigue has been real angry lately; I’m not resting enough..

this entry is all over the place

The house continues to be great!! I’m in love with all my plants. Chrys’ mom gave us a handful of plants, including one that had been passed down allt he way from my wife’s great-great-grandmother. I feel super honored and loved to be given such a family heirloom. I am meticulous about making sure they survive.

The stairs on the other hand are my mortal enemy (chronic fatigue and post-exertional malaise). I don’t know what to do.

I need to calm down for bed by watching some chill youtube.

I’m toying with getting shell access on the kindle (it runs fucking linux) so I can access BBSs and such lol. Chrys is thinking of putting a text adventure / interactive fiction game interpreter on her kindle 2 to play an old game from her childhood. Both are really cool ideas I think